On the fitness front: I was able to get a short run in this week (5k) but was not able to get in a second run or cross training, although technically I taught cheerleaders dances and cheers and we conditioned at the start of practice so I think that might count as cross training :). My long run was 9 miles this week and it started of great! I ran pretty quickly to 4 miles and thought, man training for a whole marathon would be a total breeze. Then came miles 5,6, and 7 and then I remembered how hard running is. An elderly lady came and sat on an exercise bike next to my treadmill and I felt her judging me so badly because I had two water bottles, my Netflix playing and I was scarfing down what probably looked to be a chocolate brownie but was actually a fiber one energy square. I felt the urge to need to explain myself that I had been running over an hour and I needed the energy, water and my shows as a distraction from the monotony of my workout. Then I remembered I had invented the whole situation in my head and she had never even spoken a word to me. And that I get incredibly defensive about ridiculous things. That is so dumb, I am working on that.
On the eating better front: I started making smoothies for breakfast everyday this week. We did an experiment to eat vegetarian during the week and meat on weekends as it is cheaper and then we can afford lots of good fresh veggies and fruit for smoothie making. I also have been cutting back on dairy and trying flax, hemp and coconut milk instead as I have been avoiding a long time food issue with milk products and my tummy. The coconut milk is soooooooo tasty! My favorite combination so far is mango, pineapple and banana. Mixed with Super Green from Trader Joe's which is a supplement you can stir in that has all sorts of yummy algae and green superfood inside. It tastes like berries though. We also tried some this week with oats stirred in and chia seeds. It has been fun. I would like to recommend that you not get too excited and try to mix everything together that you buy on the same day because you will end up with a grey cement like concoction that you will not be able to choke down no matter how hard you try. Here are some yummy things we have made over the last week or so. Don't feel like you have to always use the entire recommended "ingredients" list, ain't nobody got time for that". I am very much one to substitute, neglect and ignore ingredients and everything turned out just fine.
Thai Sweet Chili Glaze Salmon
http://www.onceuponachef.com/2011/10/broiled-salmon-with-thai-sweet-chili-glaze.html
Sweet Potato Quinoa Cakes with Blackberry Salsa
http://www.howsweeteats.com/2012/05/sweet-potato-quinoa-cakes-with-blackberry-salsa/
Black Bean Chick Pea Avocado Salad
http://www.cookingchanneltv.com/recipes/black-bean-chickpea-salad-recipe/index.html
(I experimented with dried beans, I hydrated them overnight and they turned out great, it is WAY cheaper to do beans this way. And by way cheaper I mean a few dollars, dollars are a lot to me).
On the spiritual front: Sort of a major fail. It is so much easier to read about the way you want to live and behave than it is to put it into practice. I had a horrible embarrassingly stupid argument with my husband which I was ultimately in the wrong and instead of just giving an honest genuine apology right when everything happened I reacted like my angry inner 16 year old teenager self. I spewed out a list of expletives and stormed off to my bedroom where I tried to busy myself with other projects until he came around to apologize. Well that of course never happened and he went for a bike ride. After we had calmed down he came back and I (thought) I apologized but things were still kind of weird all night. And the next day, and the day after that. So I kinda tried to apologize over text the following day. And that didn't work and then I was getting super frustrated feeling like it was somehow his fault again for not forgiving me. So then I wrote an email again sort of apologizing... but also justifying all my feelings, reactions thoughts etc. After not hearing a response from him for a few hours I went back and read the email and realized I came across as a total witch. Again, I really thought I was trying to apologize. So finally I wrote another email, not trying to justify myself or to push the blame on him, just genuine sorry-ness. Minutes later I received a text that he forgave me and that we should move on. WHY COULDN'T I JUST HAVE DONE THAT IN THE FIRST PLACE?! Why must I hold on to my pride so tightly, why do I feel like I am giving up so much by saying "I am sorry, I messed up", when I know that when my feelings are hurt that is EXACTLY what I want from the other person. A genuine apology. Why do I think it is any easier to half apologize ten times and drag out a dumb argument over days than to simply apologize? I have been thinking a lot about this over the week and then remembered back to an activity we did in marriage counseling where we had to replace our names for the word "Love" as the noun in 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7.
"Brandi is patient and kind; Brandi does not envy or boast; she is not arrogant or rude. She does not insist on her own way; she is not irritable or resentful; she does not rejoice at wrongdoing; but rejoices with truth. Brandi bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things."
Ugh I am such a LIAR! I am not these things lol! I do really want to be though. I have found a new motivation to really work on these qualities especially in my marriage. I need to be building up my husband and strengthening our relationship not be a wrecking ball. Good thing every day is a new day and it is never to late to begin improving. I am so grateful for a husband who loves me not as I deserve but tries to love me how God commands and loves us!
On the finance front: We went on a shopping spree today! At Goodwill! I got pants, skirts, shirts and cycling shorts (don't judge) and Mark got several shirts as well. For about $40.00 we feel like we are fancy and have beautiful clothing. Thank you rich people for giving all your sweet, rarely used, name brand clothes away. Also, I left feeling itchy, but that's all part of the fun.
Happy Saturday world! :)
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